Blessings, beautiful souls —
I met myself first thing in the morning.
After a really challenging evening (daughter in a sleep regression, son fighting bedtime, both kids extra needy for me in particular), one that left both my husband and me functioning on empty, I decided to go to bed at 20h30. Evenings are usually the time I dedicate to the things that fill my cup, but I didn’t have any life force left in me to do so. I decided I would set my alarm, wake at 4h15, and try again in the morning.
Boy, am I glad I did.
Something has settled within me and has also made me wonder if I should continue this earlier rise (can I survive it – we will see by the afternoon). And the tarot reading I pulled for myself this morning could not be a more accurate reflection of exactly my transition from last night to this morning:
First, the bond I am forming with my Celestial Smith Tarot deck is, in one word, incredible. I don’t normally have a bond with my own created decks in this way. I create them for others and not for myself, but perhaps it is the fact that I have healed through this deck that our connection is so entwined. First, it’s a joy to shuffle and hold. It invokes some kind of power when it’s in my hands that I can’t explain. Second, the readings that come from it are clear, powerful, intentional, and get to the depths of life and spirit.
But back to this morning’s reading: check out the clarity for yourself. The 9 of Swords is a perfect image of how I felt last night (especially at 23h30 when my daughter woke from a nightmare screaming, and I thought to myself, “I can’t even sleep without being needed – perhaps a 4h15 wakeup is a bad choice.”).
I couldn’t take care of myself after taking care of everyone else. My mind was too rattled, too overwhelmed, too tired. Inside, I felt like the crying person on the 9 of Swords. I couldn’t even read in bed because the exhaustion knocked me right out.
When I woke up at 4h15 (without my alarm, no less), I felt sharp, clear, ready to go. The discipline felt like a reward in and of itself. I felt connected – to myself, to the Universe – and tuned-in. I received the clarity and connection (with my spirit) that I was craving last night as a gift in my solitude this morning.
Last night, I also made the decision to stop my Solar Logos essence and to begin a new set of essences for the Lion’s Gate Portal tomorrow. I began Geranium (as recommended to me during a channeling session with Saint Germain) and Soul Star Essence by Crystal Herbs UK. Within 20 minutes of taking the essences, I felt myself shift and enter a very meditative space – it feels a little like being dizzy, if I could describe it. I haven’t felt this with the Solar Logos (but flies are still crawling onto my hands as the Gaia Essence effect continues, apparently…), so I took this as a sign to mean it’s the right essence for me at this time.
The Soul Star Essence is attuned to Ascended Master Lady Nada which is someone I do not know and have never connected with before. Apparently, she has moved out of the Sixth Ray (with Jesus) to the Seventh Ray. She has not lived on earth but is essentially a connection that has been channeled through many teachings and, as I researched her this morning, I uncovered that she is connected to teachings surrounding the soul understanding of “I AM” – a key focus in messages coming through to me right now.
In Sanskrit, nāda refers to the primordial cosmic sound—the vibration from which creation unfolds. She teaches opening the heart without becoming self-sacrificing, loving others while maintaining healthy boundaries, serving from joy rather than obligation… essentially everything I mentioned in my post two days ago! There are no coincidences in life, only sychronicities — and it’s clear I picked the right essence today. She is also tied to flower essences, Reiki, and energy healing (a conversation I am having through email, from just this morning).
The Soul Star chakra is described in many modern energy systems as an energy center located several inches above the crown of the head. It’s said to represent:
- connection to the Higher Self
- soul purpose
- Divine guidance
- wisdom beyond the personal mind
It almost feels as though Lady Nada initiated my morning. She helped me enter a space into my own heart and allowed me to access the well that I required after a tough evening. She has clearly invited herself into my practice, and I welcome her energy moving forward. I am excited to see where this leads and how it grows, considering how it all seems to align already.
As we approach the Lion’s Gate Portal, I am reminded once again that Spirit is always communicating with us and illuminating our path as we need (even through our exhaustion!), we only need to slow down and surrender enough to notice.
As you prepare for this energetic gateway, I invite you to reflect:
What messages have been showing up for you lately?
Where are you being invited to deepen your connection with yourself and Spirit?
What are you ready to welcome into this next chapter of your journey? What are you ready to release?
The Lion’s Gate Portal is on the horizon; have a look at the Tarot Reading I have done for the Collective. If you’d like an energy reading for August, have a look at my latest newsletter.
If you wish to support my work further, have a look at all my books and journals, available here. If you want to work with me as a spiritual healer, check out my services through Seeking Celestial Grace and Awakened Little Souls. And are you dreaming of a vintage French tarot deck that inspires intuitive reading and transports you to a chateau in France? Have a look at my la galerie des glaces | the hall of mirrors Tarot deck
xx C
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