Blessings, beautiful souls —
The dreams I’ve been having paired with the cards I’ve been pulling… It’s been an interesting few days, let me tell you.
I feel something unraveling within myself, something that is emerging to the surface. I can’t quite name it, but it feels like a healing of my identity. It feels like a full-circle acknowledgment of me and my connection to Spirit through this healing – and the healing occurred through the confident embodiment of who I am, without minimizing myself for the comfort of others.
But what is exceptionally interesting is that embodying who I am did not arrive without boundaries. While I am more confidently accepting my path as a channel and allowing myself to express this without fear to others – even strangers – I still am able to energetically cut myself off from what I consider to be spiritual intrusions, and not allow myself to be spiritually taken advantage of where work is concerned.
Yesterday, for example, I went to dinner with my husband – our first date since December of last year – and felt myself getting physically ill as essentially a bombardment of spirits who have passed tried to get my attention. I felt hot, I felt sick, and I could feel them poking at my shoulders, begging me to pay attention to them. I told my husband that I felt unwell, and then confessed that I think it’s just a bunch of “dead folks” hoping to interrupt the dinner – though I’m not sure why, when I had no intentions of going up to strangers and letting them know who was there trying to say hello. I told him I asked them to leave me alone, and I called on Archangel Michael to stay strong as my keyholder. The feeling passed.
My dreams lately have also been interesting. First, I dreamt my former best friend from high school, A, was pregnant with a girl. We were together, in person, chatting as if no time or changes had passed between us, and she told me she was pregnant with a girl. Then I dreamt that I pulled elastic off the beak of a raven and began to feed it to tame it. A raven is one of my primary spirit animals, and it’s the symbol of a primary guide of mine, one I have not really connected with or worked with or heard from since 2015 – a key figure in my reAwakening/Saturn Return. Finally, I had a dream that I discovered I had a house in Hamilton – a second one that I didn’t remember ever owning, that was being rented and managed by my cousin (who is in Montreal, so I’m not sure how that works). I had no idea I still had assets in Canada, and I was immediately looking for a way to sell it off, excited at the wealth that it would bring my children.
This was my tarot reading today, which, in alignment with my dreams and what is unraveling in my present life, feels very fitting (and very curious).
First, The World is about an ending, a chapter closing, the culmination of all you worked to achieve, the Abundance that exists at the end of the journey, the gifts handed to you by the Universe. And the Ace of Pentacles is that new chapter; in particular, an earthly one, a grounded one, one where wealth manifests in new ways and a new gate is walked through to uncover a radiant, flowering garden of the Self within.
When reflecting on my dreams, I notice:
- My spirit guide’s mouth was freed, and I began to tame him (perhaps again)
- My former best friend appeared, not with resentment between us, but with a familiarity of our former selves, but birthing something new, something feminine
- This house in Canada didn’t make me feel trapped; I was ready to close another chapter without hesitation and prepared to settle in the abundance that the end of that journey would bring me
- And with the situation at dinner: I set boundaries between my spiritual life and my earthly life, letting Spirit know that that door was not open right now – The World is Spirit, the Ace is Earth
In addition to all of this, I find myself drawn into earthly practices again. What I mean to say is that back when I was a teenager, I would have referred to myself as a “witch.” During my reawakening in 2015, I found myself reading goddess books, pagan texts, witchy spellbooks, etc. And then I distanced myself from that world and found it no longer aligned with me – almost resenting it, if you will.
Now, perhaps because I have healed my throat chakra and stepped into my truth, no longer fearing the persecution or being burned at the stake as I once was, I find myself drawn back into that world. Not the world of “witch” (because I don’t do spells, spellcasting, rituals, goddess or deity work, etc.), but the Divine Feminine, earthly connection, the instinctive and embodied intuitive self… I am connecting, again, with the Raven and all the Raven has to teach me. And with it comes a greater appreciation for Gaian wisdom – the True witchcraft – to craft the life I want to live through Spiritual invitation and earthly acknowledgment. I find myself drawn to decks I wouldn’t have been interested in just a year ago. This is the Ace of Pentacles embodied: this is my new chapter emerging. It is the me that is unafraid to be seen because I am grounded in feeling protected and supported by both Spirit and Earth.
To fit with all of this, I recently completed a new deck project (the following is from my latest newsletter), one that merges Spirit, the calling of Spirit to create tools of healing, and my earthly life and practice —
| If you’ve been following along with my newsletters recently, or keeping up with my blog posts on lifeofcloud.net, or perhaps you’re working with my Visions of Christ – a Channeled Ascended Master Jesus deck, then you know that flower essences play a central role in my spiritual practice. It’s for that reason that I was guided towards my next project: a flower essence oracle deck. |
| This spiritual project started as an oracle deck. I was 33 cards in, with a completely different layout and plan, when I suddenly remembered a deck I made in 2020: Botanical Grace Tarot. This former deck came with a digital guidebook that included the botanical associations of every card (as I learned through the Lo Scarabo Tarot Compendium). I wrote about their herbal uses and shared card details and journal prompts. I suddenly decided that my original plan of 44 Flower Essence oracle cards was not enough: I would combine two worlds – oracle and tarot – and use my old guidebook as my new guide in the development of these cards. So what follows is exactly that: 78 oracle cards with tarot associations, a flower essence with every card – whether influenced by the botanical association or selected by myself through individual research and my favourite reference text, Flower Essences and Vibrational Healing by Gurudas – and an indicated moon phase. |
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| AI mockup of cards – no AI was used by me in the creation of this deck |
| fleurs célestes – a Flower Essence Oracle & Tarot Deck What if the wisdom you need could be found in the spirit of flowers? fleurs célestes is a 78-card divination deck bringing together ancient allies: Tarot, oracles, flower essences, and the moon. Created as an oracle first and foremost, each card offers a flower essence to explore alongside a tarot archetype and lunar phase – creating a deeply intuitive tool for emotional alchemy, spiritual growth, self-discovery, and connection with the natural world. But what exactly is a flower essence? Flower essences are subtle vibrational remedies created by capturing the energetic imprint of a flower in water. Unlike essential oils, which are concentrated physical extracts of plant material and carry the plant’s aroma, flower essences contain no scent and no physical plant extract. They are traditionally used to support emotional, energetic, and spiritual well-being. Draw a card to discover the essence your energy may be calling for. Use the tarot archetype as a mirror for your inner journey. Follow the Moon to deepen your ritual, reflection, or timing. Or simply allow the flowers to speak. Whether you are new to flower essences or already weave them into your spiritual practice, fleurs célestes invites you to slow down, listen inward, and discover the subtle wisdom held within the plant world. Use it as an oracle. Read it as tarot. Work with it as a flower essence guide. Let the Moon illuminate the path. A sacred meeting place between flowers, archetypes, intuition, and the celestial rhythms of nature. |
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| AI mockup of cards – no AI was used by me in the creation of this deck |
| This deck, in essence (pun intended), is, first and foremost, an oracle deck – meant to help you select what flower essence you should work with in your spiritual practice. The moon phases are meant to assist with guiding timing, lunar work, creating an association with the wheel of the year, or amplifying introspective reflection. Paired with the tarot titles, this can be used in tandem with personal or professional tarot readings to gain greater spiritual direction and growth through flower essence recommendations, or pulled as its own tarot reading. – Contains a QR code with access to a digital guidebook – No box to minimize production costs for a cheaper price point for you You can preview every single card by going to the shop page and clicking “preview” next to the “add to cart” button. CHECK OUT THE DECK, HERE! |
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| AI mockup of cards – no AI was used by me in the creation of this deck |
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It feels, now, when I reflect on all the cards I have pulled in the last few days (including the 10 of Swords – a very graphic card about killing off an old identity!), that I am learning how to truly integrate my spiritual and earthly self, how to embrace these new ways of connecting, trusting my voice in all of this, and closing off or setting boundaries on pieces of myself that no longer serve who I want to become. In addition, I am welcoming back in parts of me – or guides – who will help me better understand and connect with myself during this new chapter of my spiritual life (essentially, who I will find in the garden when I walk through the gate on the Ace of Pentacles).
What is unfolding now feels less like a return to who I was and more like a reclamation of something I had left behind. I can feel myself becoming more open to the intuitive, mystical and earth-connected parts of my nature again, without needing to define them or fit them into a particular belief system. The cards, the dreams and these quiet inner stirrings all seem to be pointing in the same direction: toward deeper trust in myself, my creativity and the path that is revealing itself one step at a time. I am unsure of where it will all lead, but I will continue to listen.
If you wish to support my work further, have a look at all my books, journals, and decks, available here. If you want to work with me as a spiritual healer, check out my services through Seeking Celestial Grace and Awakened Little Souls. And: What if the wisdom you need could be found in the spirit of flowers – in a 78-card oracle deck? Have a look at fleurs célestes – a Flower Essence Oracle & Tarot Deck created by yours truly.
xx C
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