Blessings, beautiful souls —
I have entered a very strange and contemplative space this morning. One where something was revealed to me that I can’t quite understand. I intend to share it here with the hope that maybe it’s been spotted or known by one of you who reads this. But first, I wish to begin with what was uncovered in my cards.
I have started reading a new workbook by Mary Greer called 21 Ways to Read a Tarot Card. I am already loving the way I am unraveling pieces of understanding the cards, and how it feels like a conscious and connected way to work with the deck and look at the cards in an interesting manner. One of the activities that Greer encourages is asking the question, “Who am I?” and drawing the card – then drawing two others with the same question. You are meant to note your feelings towards what comes forward, and I felt jubilation, connection, and resonated with every one that came forward. Here’s what I pulled:
This spoke to me and humbled me. To first pull THE SUN was an honour: it is not a card I would have ever pulled for myself, but the Universe declared it through the cards! Most people might have been turned off by the second card, but it made sense to me – and the third that followed was a perfect summary of “Who I am.” Let me explain how this was read.
THE SUN says that I am illumination – a bringer or carrier of light. I am someone who illuminates the way, riding in on the white horse of Truth, encouraging growth for others and being nourished – like a joyous child – in the process. The 5 of Pentacles states that I remain grounded in the reality of what life can offer, and, having had known what it feels like to be outside the light, I am now the window for others. I help them focus on home (God) and want to guide them to the building where this warm light emanates. Finally, the 6 of Cups rounds off the message with tenderness, with an offering to those who search for the softness, who crave a return to their connection to Spirit, like a child wishes to be taken care of by their parents. Essentially, the 6 of Cups is the mechanics of my service that ushers others – and myself – out of the 5 of Pentacles. The number progression also highlights the transition.
But here is where it gets weird. After I did this little self-study, some images started to appear in my peripheral vision. I sketched what I saw and wrote some notes. They are as follows:
It was in my right eye and was so distracting that I asked for it to be removed. I said if it cannot be explained, I’d like it to be removed. The right eye is associated with the male side; logic, reason, etc. After asking for it to be removed, it vanished very quickly, but then a short while later, a migraine in my left eye arrived. So strong that it made me feel nauseous. I also asked for this to be removed, stating that whatever download was being sent to me could not be handled by my earth body. The vibration or information was too strong for the vessel. At this moment, the pain in my left eye has faded but the nausea remains – from a painful throat chakra that extends downwards to just above my navel.
This lightcode is unlike those I’ve received in the past. Lightcodes I have scribed have been soft, curved, emotional – this one felt very intense, with an angular design. It’s also an interesting time of arrival, as I am having an Akashic Records reading with my hypnotherapist Margot Borden later this morning. Perhaps it is in preparation for what will come forward? Perhaps it is readying my energetic body? I am unsure. I have posted it here to see if anyone has seen the same or can relate. I am exceptionally dizzy. It is also worth noting that I’ve begun surfing the crimson wave and this migraine could also be connected to this.
This is where I end today, as I simply cannot continue. I don’t yet know what to make of this experience, and I don’t feel the need to decide today. What I do know is that it arrived immediately after asking the cards a very simple question: Who am I? I have received the message, though I do not understand it. For now, I am going to let the experience remain exactly as it was and see what unfolds during my Akashic session today.
If you have seen anything resembling these symbols or experienced something similar, I would genuinely love to hear from you.
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xx C
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