Blessings beautiful souls,
My head is still too blocked to sit with a clairaudient mediumship session, so I listen to my body when it tells me to rest. I do find myself pulled to write, despite this state, so – here I am.
I find myself settling into a new identity that feels really aligned with my True Self – at least my True Self in this present moment (as I do desire to ever-grow). I find myself being hyper-conscious of the impact of consumption on my spirit, and being thoroughly mindful of where I want to be vibrating – and holding myself there (or higher). I am devouring books on connecting with nature, simple living, journaling about the wild world, and chicken keeping. I find myself drawn to the comfortable and warm clothes rather than the cute, and being happy in my mountain style. I am consuming less (apart from books) and really weighing need over want.
It all feels very Buddhist in essence: an honouring of the gifts of earth, a non-attachment to materialism, and disconnecting from suffering in all its forms. I am trying to gain a more intimate connection to nature both with admiring the wild around me and better understanding the healing gifts of the earth through holistic practices. I am also accepting of the fact that, at this stage in my life, a lot of my life is not really mine. As a mother, much of me will need to be put on pause. There will come a time when I will have an abundance of hours to myself and not know what to do with them. That is not right now and that is okay.
I am also being mindful of whom I spend my time with – both digitally or in person. I am honouring myself by saying no when I am spread thin and disconnecting from conversations that do not simplify my life. I am at a stage where I am looking for friendships that benefit the spiritual growth of both parties, and a love that has no conditions (including being able to say what is on your mind without the other person being offended). I am tired of being a trauma dumping ground, a negative that often comes with being a spiritual healer. I am happy in my family bubble and find the closest friendships in my home; I am content with this.
I no longer feel guilty for going to bed early. The world has told us that we need to keep busy and that life begins at night, but I am ensuring I make the most of my days and allow my body to rest – fully and completely – when the sun sets.
I have confirmed with my spiritual advisor that my distance from social media (and not “advertising myself”) is truly the best path for my spiritual and emotional health. There is no guilt to be felt there, either, as those who need my work will find me.
All of this is regulation of my vibration, not withdrawal from society. Slowness is safety, quiet is medicine, solitude is peaceful, and simplicity is my recalibration. This cycle requires tending to myself and my spirit so that I can better tend to the world. My spirit calls me back to Gaia, to stillness, to books, to solitude.
If you find yourself craving the same – less noise, less emotional weight, less obligation, less explanation – it may be your soul calling for conditions where it can truly thrive. Listen to this inner knowing, this soul wisdom.
These days, my life feels smaller on the outside and infinitely wider within. Fewer plans. Earlier nights. More sky. More pages turned. More dinners mindfully made. And in this quiet, I feel closer to myself than I have in a very long time.
If you want to support my work further, please check out my books and journals. If you want to work with me as a spiritual healer, check out my services through Seeking Celestial Grace and Awakened Little Souls.
xx C
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