The Throat Chakra has always been a complicated place of alignment for me.
As a youth, I struggled with speaking my mind and being authentically me. In young adulthood, I rarely spoke my truth because I was a people pleaser and feared the repercussions of voicing it. I often went through creative phases and then blotted them out for various life distractions. I rarely made decisions for myself but made decisions I thought others would want to see. I was self-destructive and fearful of writing my own story. Most importantly, I failed to release so many pent-up emotions, feelings, and ideas because I missed opportunities in the moment or simply out of fear, sometimes allowing those “what if I had said…” moments to ruminate in my brain and keep me up at night. I often created dialogues in my head instead of actually having those dialogues with people, trying to keep myself safe and protected in the process.
I have realized how dangerous this is to my spiritual health, and have – since the Taurus moon – begun to navigate and heal these blockages in my Throat Chakra through letter writing.
These are letters I owe people or letters in which I speak my mind to people when I wasn’t otherwise given a chance. These are letters in which I stand strong in my truth and worth or offer my apologies and weaknesses. They are letters in which I tell people how they made me feel or ask for forgiveness for how I made them feel.
Some of these letters I have sent, even knowing they will stay “unread”, as a way to energetically reclaim my strength from people who tried to take it from me. Some of these letters will remain unsent, but the mere act of putting them down on paper allows me to release an emotional load that I no longer wish to carry. And some of these letters will stay unsent until there is a trigger prompting their release (or even a person asking me if such a letter, for them, exists – ask and you shall receive! Honesty and transparency are part of healing, no?).
Abraham Lincoln used to participate in this practice. When he was upset with someone or hurt by someone (or hurt someone himself), instead of confronting them in the heat of his anger, he would sit and write them a letter. These letters usually ended up in a wastebasket, and he felt relief simply from the act of writing them, his bottled-up emotions vanishing into the abyss. Some of my letters sit in journals or on the notes or drafts app of my cellphone, things I wish I could say, could have said, and need to liberate myself from. All of these letters I may never send offer the same kind of freeing relief.
Since writing is my most powerful avenue to access Spirit, I suppose it’s only fitting that this is the exercise I have selected as my healing module. I am grateful for these letters. I’m grateful that so many pages have taken the weight off my shoulders for me.
Do you write letters you’ll never send?
Do you think I may have written you one??!
xx C
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